Is God Far Away?

Far Away?

Do you ever feel like God is far away? or that maybe He has forgotten about you in your struggle??

I think we all do at times. King David – called “a man after God’s own heart” even wrote about feeling this way in Psalms.

Psalm 13:1-6 ESV

1“How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?

2″How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day? How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?

3“Consider and answer me, O LORD my God; light up my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death, 4lest my enemy say, ‘I have prevailed over him,’ lest my foes rejoice because I am shaken.

5“But I have trusted in Your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.

6“I will sing to the LORD, because He has dealt bountifully with me.”

Direction

Usually, when I pray and start writing the devotional for the next day, I have some sense of God’s direction to go with. I know that you guys do not need to hear from me, so I always want Him to lead me into our time together. I do not want to waste your time and I do not want it to be all about me.

Blocked

This past Wednesday, I was exhausted because I had been on the go all day with no time to take a break. At 9 pm, I sat down to write the post for the next morning. As I spent time in His Word and in prayer asking God for help, I was just having a terrible time focusing and getting any kind of direction at all. I had no idea what to do. That made me panic because I want to be a woman of my word. However, I was not willing to just write something… kind of whatever came out… to have a post for the next day.

I struggled with this for a while and then decided I needed to stop trying to force Him to give me something. For whatever reason, I wasn’t hearing from Him, so I started looking back in my older posts to see if I was drawn to something there. I found the one I posted for Thursday, changed a couple of things and posted it.

Let’s look at Verses 1 & 2:

1“How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever? How long will You hide Your face from me?

2″How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day? How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?

He Is Quiet

Have you ever had a time when He was quiet and seemingly far away? I have had many times like this over the last few months. With the weird “new normal” I seem to have, I frequently really struggle to concentrate. My mind is just all over the place. I feel like I am trapped in a vacuum and God is not in the vacuum with me. Anxiety, fatigue and depression pound around in there with me but God is quiet. It is lonely and scary.

Now to Verses 3 & 4:

3“Consider and answer me, O LORD my God; light up my eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death, 4lest my enemy say, ‘I have prevailed over him,’ lest my foes rejoice because I am shaken.

The Vacuum

When I am in this “vacuum”, I just want to go to sleep. I want to avoid the loneliness and the scariness and sleep until I feel better. The problem is that huge amounts of sleep only make it worse. Now guilt and a feeling of worthlessness are also echoing around in the vacuum, along with my other companions. Who does seem to be prevailing here?

But This I Know

I may not hear God or feel Him near me, BUT He has not gone anywhere. He is still with me even when it doesn’t feel like He is. This really makes me appreciate feeling His presence and His love.

5“But I have trusted in Your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.

6“I will sing to the LORD, because He has dealt bountifully with me.”

He Has Been Good

His steadfast love and His salvation have never left me. And He has dealt bountifully – He has been good to me.

Painful Work

In this dry “wilderness” time, I know He has things to teach me. I know He has work to do on me. He is working on me. Some of the most painful work He has ever done on me, He is doing now. I know the main thing I need to do is be still, listen and obey.

Rejoice

He is a Good, Good God and He loves me and you even when we cannot feel it. We truly can rejoice in His salvation. No matter how lonely or scared we are, as believers in Christ, we know that nothing can take us out of His hand! 

Into the Light

Even though where I am now can seem very dark at times, I know that soon He is going to bring me to a place where I can see Him shining even more brightly than I have been capable of seeing Him before. Growing in Him and allowing Him to mold us is worth whatever He has to do in our hearts and lives, right?

Real

I hope this has not been a downer for you today, because I know that God is good and He loves us all so very dearly. I just want to be real with you! This is real, let me tell you!

God is good!!

Things to Ponder: (that I have seen through this wilderness time)

  • Even when God feels far away and you feel alone, He is with you. John 14:16-17
  • As a believer in Christ, you cannot be snatched from His hand. John 10:27-30
  • Dry “wilderness” times are never for no reason. It will be worth it! James 1:2-4

Go Deeper Today:

John 15:18-16:4

 

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