All of us have things in our past that we need to get over or have already gotten over. The betrayal of a friend or family member, broken trust, lack of loyalty, lack of protection, and much worse. These things can hurt terribly.
This is the true story of a friend of mine. She gave me permission to share this. When she was in elementary school her family moved to a new town because her parents had gotten divorced. It was a hard time at best.
Lonely and Rejected
No child befriended her at her new school. They all had their friends with seemingly no need for more. So she was very lonely and felt very rejected. They would say unkind things that made her stay away from them. She was a little shy and did not make new friends easily and since no one seemed to want her around she just stayed by herself. Every night she cried at bedtime and she would never tell her mom why, but it was because she dreaded the next school day.
The playground was worst of all. She loved for it to rain so they had to stay inside. During her first few months at the tiny elementary school, it all came to a climax. This day is etched in her memory. She remembers one day on the playground when most of the girls from her class and all the girls from the next grade up – about 20 girls in all – circled around her. They yelled mean things at her. One of the girls, who had seemed like her friend outside of school, did most of the talking. The main thing my friend remembers is that she asked, “Why don’t you go back where you came from. Nobody wants you here.” Then other things were said to establish that statement as fact.
A Wave of Terror
Years later my friend moved to a completely new place. She really struggled with her new home and she was terrified to go out in public but she could not figure out why. She would reason with herself that she was being silly. Then she would be walking through the grocery store and this wave of terror would roll over her.
One day, she realized what was happening. That same familiar wave of terror rolled over her. Then, she felt like everyone in the store knew she did not belong there. She felt like they were about to turn, look at her, and then tell her that no one wanted her there, so why didn’t she just go back to where she came from. Of course, no one in the store did that, but that is when it occurred to her why she was afraid.
Until that moment, she had not realized that she was still, 38 years later, carrying around that playground experience in her mind and heart.
This is when we began working on her healing of this awful time in her life and this particularly terrible experience. We went to God’s Word. This first verse should be very familiar:
“The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on Me, because the LORD has anointed Me to preach the good news to the poor. He has sent Me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives, and release from darkness for the prisoners…”
My friend’s heart had been broken years back. She had not even realized it was not healed until that day. However, her Savior came to bind the brokenhearted.
She ran to Him carrying her broken heart in her hands (figuratively). Just realizing the need was there and taking it to Him, gave her great relief immediately. And God began healing her heart.
“1Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and 2live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”
As we allow God to fill us with His love there will no longer be room for all that hurt. It will have to go and make way for the love of God and the Spirit of God. The stronger we grow in our relationship with Him the more easily those things will be dealt with.
God deals with us in pieces. I think it is because we could not handle it if He did all the work we need at once. My friend has been walking with the Lord for a long time. He decided to deal with this hurt and He allowed it to come to the surface that day.
2 Corinthians 4:17-18
“17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
As Christians, most of us know that our time here on earth is very, very short compared to what our eternity with God will be. The troubles we have here in this life look so small in comparison. Troubles are real and they can loom huge in front of us but they will just fade away when we see Him face to face. We will have all eternity to be trouble free and in His beautiful, amazing presence.
I know that there are far worse stories of how people have been deeply hurt but God is always the same. He came to heal our hearts and make us ready to glorify Him with our lives. We will talk more about this subject next time.
Into The Day
My precious friends, my prayer today is that we all be ready to let God take our broken hearts and make them whole. I pray that we will seek to have Him fill us up and satisfy us with His love. And that His love will overwhelmingly heal our wounds. May we bring Him glory in all we do! Have a wonderful day!
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